Heartbreak: Oblivion? What the ….?

This moment is to sacred, frustrating at the brink of pure “someone is absolutely mad” to pass by. I just seen this flash on CNN news and it broke my heart. But I think I’m more pissed than heartbroken. What the H.E.L.L. is wrong with the “you know who guy” that this would happen? Is he so into himself that he can’t see anything else in sight? That can’t be true! This can’t be happening. And, yet, it is as real as the sky is blue! Can we become so engulfed in self that we dismiss the smallest thing that could save someone; even unto death? There’s something really wrong if we’re that blind because of politics, relationships, money, fame, etc. Whatever floats your boat!!

I mean, come on here! I just heard about the foolishness of bothering the Iranians! Again, what the crap is wrong with this guy?! I don’t know about you but if we don’t start checking ourselves before it gets to late, and stopped acting like we don’t know something, and if we are ignorant — find the time to read something to learn, we will become a people extinct within a matter of a few years. Oh yes! A few years. If he this continues our country, as we “know” it, will come to an end. It’s just like that other blog when I talked about the fear I have in what’s going on in our world, really as a whole. NO! We will never get the blossomed trees of a warm sunny day 24/7 but I hope we at least care for others enough to want to be an aid instead of a liability.

You know what? To God be the glory for the things He has done! Is doing! And will complete! Why, because if He didn’t have the ultimate plan …. we would never have the hope in seeing the light of day of heaven (eternity)!!

“Going Through HELL”

Good morning to you! My title: crazy way to start out the day. For those who’ve read my posts, it’s not that far-fetched. Actually, it’s quite the opposite. I was talking to the Lord, again (…again and again and again and again lol) concerning what’s been happening since Junior High (hmmm, I think even since elementary) the build of mounted anger and frustration for change. A specific change of humanity and worth! Yelp. Small things that matter most is, merely, an afterthought for many. If only it were my yesteryear.

Then versus now is the ability to articulate, though simplicity may be better (lol), and loquacious. “An ounce of joy that can penetrate the deep seeded pain of everyday.” Yes. That sentence seems like it’s incomplete but it is the BARED essence in the mental tug-of-war faced each day. We bear things that strip (bare) us passed vulnerability. The companionship of hostility is liken unto the murderous ways of taking a life: guns, bullying, etc. It is the “going through hell” moments presiding in prevail and, as it appears, there’s no stopping it! Which brings me to this window of opportunity.

In talking to God I thought about the scripture “He’ll keep you in perfect peace who’s mind is stayed on Him.” Now, that seems absurd. I said to Him, “That whole statement seems like you stay in the mental state of euphoria. I cannot afford to act like life isn’t happening.” And this lead me to the search. I didn’t add the apostrophe in ‘he’ll’ which, of course, is ‘hell’. And the song by Rodney Atkins pops up “If You’re Going Through Hell”. The song I needed for the service I render this morning!

I encourage you this morning, and in times to come, that:

“If you’re going through hell, keep on going. Don’t slow down, if you’re scared don’t show it. You might get out before the devil even knows you’re there. …. If you’re going through hell, keep on moving. Face that fire, walk right through it. You might get out before the devil even knows you’re there!” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l50L4GYhpLc

Transparent: Rage!

A violent UNCONTROLLABLE anger! Anger ~ a STRONG feeling of annoyance, displeasure or hostility! Hmmm, which captures the mindset of where I find myself … today? Well, ANGER!! I guess that self-control thing bites me in the butt every time. Have you ever (let me guess for those who sweep things under the carpet — uuuh, note … if you keep doing this your carpet will began to, eventually, lift because it needed to be dealt with and now you’re staring down the barrel of implosion; possibly even explosion. A weapon of some sort which includes words, etc. but what do I know …) … did you lose your place? Probably. But the question I started with, within itself, had the answer. Of course, we all have dealt with some moment of feeling abundantly angry, but did it get to rage?! I can honestly admit … with the self-control I have, it hasn’t gotten that far.

I remember one time (it was right after coming out of a 3 day sleep depression. All I wanted to do to cope with the pain {and yes, no eating during these days}), was dealing with a situation with my Mom. I knew anger had come once I awakened but didn’t realize the extent till that moment when she was saying, seemingly, all the “wrong” things. I had wound up telling my Dad that had I not gone away for awhile I don’t know what I would have done. Depression is SEVERE despondency! Nothing but darkness surrounds your very essence. Its presence so defining that the sharpest knife couldn’t sear it.

Why won’t we be honest to the truth of where we REALLY are mentally?! Too often we try different coping mechanisms that aren’t working. What is it to read something like this? Why am I choosing to be transparent about something so personal that even my vulnerability is vulnerable? Because we gotta speak up. Look at the shootings; mindless killings across our nation. In our world! And, sadly, taking a stand is only encouraged when others do so. The only thing in this … sometimes it’s too late! I speak today because I’ve been speaking. I don’t know who will hear me. I don’t know who will care. I’m just thankful that I can write it out that … “I’m WRITE Hear”!

I’ll repost “I’m WRITE Hear” and, by all means, share your thoughts with me. And definitely share with those you know who need, also, to speak up!